but what is enough?

Life has it's way of keeping me happy these days. Though I have my doubts about where life is going to end up taking me. I am no longer graduating this summer, instead I will be graduating in the fall. I was unhappy about this at first, but now I realize that things are for the better this way. I really need to focus on my future for the rest of the year. I need to figure out how I can support myself before I can't. I'm so scared of the real world, but so interested in how it works.

I am so uninspired lately. I would give anything to be able to know what I'm supposed to do with my life, and what I'm actually good at. I'm surrounded by people who are good at something...and I've yet to figure out what my gift is. Before I met the people I know now, I felt like making people smile was a gift on it's own. Now I realize it isn't enough. Do you know how hard that hurts when you realize it just isn't enough?